Did anyone see that film by Terrence Malick? It was very artistic.
Anyway, I've had some stuff on my mind for the last week - understandably. I've just kind of been pondering what my life is going to look like now that I've decided to be a voice for good in the world. For anyone interested, starting with a post next Sunday I'll be a regular blogger on the North Star website. North Star is an organization designed to help support members of the church who deal with Same Sex Attraction, along with family and friends who are looking to support loved ones.
I feel like it might be a tough balance for me. In my post last week the main point that I make is that my attractions are not what I use to define myself. I tend to steer clear of groups, events, even websites etc where that becomes the focus because it's so easy to get wrapped up in it and let it define your life. I'm interested to see how I come to grips with that conundrum. Any suggestions?
Since I was asked to join the blogging team over at North Star I've been pondering what I'd like to write about. What can I say that will uplift others? Help them choose to be happy? See that life can be fulfilling regardless of hard challenges?
I'm not sure I have the answer to that question yet. But I know it'll come.
Incidentally as I've been pondering this issue I've remembered specific instances when I've shared part or all of my story with individual friends and family. Perhaps the most awkward was when I confided in a friend of mine from the MTC. Awkward only because we showered together every day back in the days when the MTC had the good old community showers. (Great idea. "Hey, you can't act on your attractions, but we'll let you shower daily with a bunch of other young men." When I found out about that it was almost enough to keep me from going on a mission.)
Anyway, thanks again everybody for your love and support. Glad to have you all along on this little adventure of mine.